I woke up this morning from a really odd dream. I will post it but it will be all over the place because it skipped around a lot. In my dream, I was pregnant and I had one contraction and pretty much gave birth to a little boy. My husband was there so I didn't go to a hospital or anything. I had no recollection of any pain, just that I went from like one contraction to having a baby. Then like RIGHT after I had the baby - a little boy - I went to work because I didn't want to be late???! So I was at work and looked in the mirror and realized I looked pretty good for just having a baby LOL. Then I tried sucking in and stuff and it made me happy. That is when I realized, I had only carried him for 6 months so he was VERY premature. But when I got home from work, I saw that all of Mike's family was there taking care of him and I walked up to whoever was holding him and touched his super soft and dark blonde hair and was like "hi sweetheart" and it's weird because I felt like a mother when I did that; like he was mine. But at the same time there was no physical connection like I didn't really care about holding him or anything :( Mike was a great dad though haha. Then it skipped to where I went to see Mike in a classroom with a bunch of other people I knew and we just then realized that we didn't have a name for the baby because he was born so premature and I also realized I didn't even have one single doctor's appointment. So we asked everyone in the room what we should name him and Mike said, "I don't care as long as it's with an 'M'". So I thought of Malachi. I like that name but it's funny that I thought that. Then I got a call from my mom and I realized that I never even told her I had my baby! So she called and was really mad. She pretty much hung up on me and I felt bad. Then I woke up. WEIRD right? I really really want a baby though. Like just feeling his tiny, fuzzy head when I touched him in my dream just made me melt. AWWWW!!!!! BABIES! Must. HAVE. BABIESSSS!!!!!
If you didn't know about my baby fever...you do now ;) It's true though, I really just want to be a mom more than anything in the world. Seeing my friends and some family members having babies will have to suffice for now. In the mean time, I will just make them all cute little gifts like these really cute flowers I learned how to make over a candle flame! I want to learn how to knit but I'm sort of scared of it because it looks so...daunting to say the least haha. Maybe I can have my mother-in-law show me how to do it...but it normally ends up that she's show me but do it ALL for me. We were supposed to make an apron together a few months ago so I bought the material and stuff and I'd never made an apron before so she pretty much sewed the whole thing! I didn't get ANY practice. So needless to say, if I want to sew anything again, learn on my own and do it on my own. Sigh. I learn so much better hands on.
Last night Mike and I went to see Resident Evil and eat at Rubio's. Twas delicious and tasty! I need to stop eating crap food though. I mean, I'm still about the same weight I was when I got married 2 months ago but I don't want to be one of those girls who lets herself go after she gets married. Nope nope, not me! But like for example, this morning I went to the evil and dreaded McDonald's and bought a vanilla latte and 3...I repeat...3 cookies. NOOOOO! Bad. I know. I haven't worked out consistently lately either. I just feel worn out and exhausted all of the time. I'm thinking next week will be better because my body is still recovering from like NO sleep this last weekend when I went home to visit my family in Missouri.
I have been feeling extra crafty lately so I want to embrace that while I still have the inspiration. My inspiration comes and goes...so it's best I take advantage of it while it's going strong! I want to make more little flowers, headbands, I want to learn to knit, to sew and to bake new things. I have to get paid and go grocery shopping first though ;)
I should hop back to getting work done now! Might update more later.
Love and Peace,
Lizzy
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